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Sorry... Prohosting's FTP server was being obnoxious yesterday, and I didn't get the entry uploaded. So, yesterday's entry is up now.

Speaking of Prohosting, and my journal in general... There are changes afoot. I'd have it up to here with the buggy ads they put on my pages, and I went looking elsewhere. I'd like to thank everyone who sent me hosting ideas, but I was approved for space on a free server. Yes, another free server, one that hopefully won't pull the bait and switch thing on me.

(Incidentally, that's why I'm so upset with Prohosting. Yes, I realize that it takes money to provide a service like free web hosting, but when they say, "No ads ever," I'm inclined to believe them. Having them change their tune just pisses me off.)

Another change in the works is for my journal. Now, I'll still be keeping a journal. But it is going to be expanded. I'm about to embark on the greatest adventure of my life: marriage, and a move to another country. I want to collect all my thoughts in one place, so I'm dividing the journal into two sections; one for regular daily stuff, and one for thoughts on wedding planning, immigration, and marriage.

I'm working on getting the new place ready, but with all the other things I need to do right now (like cleaning) it's going a bit slowly. I'll be sure to keep you updated on what's up.

The problem is, I can't get myself worked up about anything. For the past few days, I've felt like an emotionless shell. I have neither highs nor lows. Things that would ordinarily send me into a tizzy... Like spending twenty minutes on the phone today explaining to a woman that, yes, we do pick up people other than her, and she can't ride the bus all by herself... Things like that don't get me worked up. I don't get angry. I don't get upset. I don't feel anything.

I feel a bit excited that Dave will be here soon, but I'm not as emotionally strident as I usually am. (Emotionally strident - no, I'm not sure what that means.) I feel blah.

Just blah.

I should be ecstatic. The weather has been beautiful. My love is coming here to see me. My sunflowers are all blooming. My paycheck tomorrow is going to be really nice. But I just feel blah.

I need to get unblahed sometime this weekend.