04 26 00

no merger

While Dave was visiting, the judgement on the merger was handed down. The answer was no go.

Damnit.

Of course, this means my "raise" will be delayed yet again. I am so tired of being jerked around. When I hired on, they dangled the promise of a sales tax levy before me. Then the levy vote was pushed back a few months. Then they abandoned the levy idea and concentrated on the merger. Now that the merger is kaput, the levy is back.

I'm fucking sick of this.

The bad thing is, I understand their problem. They have only limited funds. Raising me to full-time status is something that they really can't afford right now, and there are drivers who have more seniority than me. But I'm tired of staring at the carrot they've been dangling in front of me for so long. I'm tired of living paycheck to paycheck.

Yeah, yeah. I know I've talked about getting a second job before. But that was a "second job" inkling. Right now, I'd be happy going somewhere else entirely.

But I'm going to have a problem finding someplace that will hire me for more than I'm making now. Right now I'm earning $8.25/hr. Entry-level wages around here for unskilled workers is about $6.25/hr.

Unskilled! Me?! Fuck. I have a college degree. I have book smarts. I know how to use a computer. I just don't know how to do anything else.

I'm in it for the money now. I have no interest in pursuing this "career." Anyway, this job was just supposed to be a stop-gap, something to do while I found another job. But somewhere along the line it turned from a temporary job to a "real" job.

Somewhere along the line, I let myself get suckered by a pipe dream.

I've been perusing the classifieds. I need to find something worth my while. I'm still looking for a second job in addition to this one, but - damn. I feel like such a hypocrite. I whine and rant and rave about not getting paid enough, not being challenged enough, not being appreciated enough... And then I sit here and wait for the Perfect Job to come knocking. No food service. Good pay. Reasonable hours, or (for a second job) hours that will fit my schedule. Limited public contact, if possible. And "Oh... And here are the days I won't be able to work."

You see, I have things coming up. I have to go to Sammy's graduation from medical school. (Hey - she's only going to do this once!) And I'm going to Anthrocon - no contest. So I'm going to need someplace desperate enough to let me have days off just after I've started.

sigh I've been thinking about applying at a temp agency. Of course, I don't really know how temp agencies work. I want to be able to tell them what I can do and the hours I'm available, and let them find me something to do. Let them do the work.

Heh. Meanwhile, I need to polish my resume. Err, I need to rewrite my resume; the last one I have was from 3 years ago!

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