12 09 99

red menace

The heavens are conspiring against Dave and I.

Last night while I was drifting off to sleep, I was thinking about how nice it would be to see Dave over New Year's. (Not that I'm planning anything of course. Don't want to jinx it.) I was thinking about throwing my arms around him, giving him a big kiss...

And then my mind suddenly made a huge leap to another subject. I'm sure you've experienced this while staring out bus window or something. You're thinking along on one thing, and suddenly you're thinking about something almost entirely but not completely unrelated. Anyway, my mind made the jump to my cycle. Yeah, that cycle.

Let's see. When Dave was down in September, the red menace was also here. When I went up to Canada in October, the menace went with me.

Guess when the red menace is visiting next?

I'm not on the Pill or anything so I can't "conveniently" postpone my period. I just have to deal with it when it comes. And I'm not mad because it will interrupt anything that Dave and I might do. (Well, I am slightly mad about that, but I'm happy just snuggling up to him. He's told me he's happy just doing that, too.)

I'm mad because I'll feel shitty. For the last two times I've seen Dave, I've had to put up with cramps and the general aches and emotional disturbances that I get. (He has to put up with them too...) And when I see Dave, I don't want to be worrying about "Gee, is it time to change my tampon?" or "Hmm, I hope I don't leak all over the sheets tonight." I just want to enjoy being with him.

I hardly ever get to see him as it is. It's just not fair that this has to happen whenever I see him! This will make it three times in a row.

It seems so unlikely. I figure that in one month, only six days are red menace days. Although we didn't get to see each other in November, we're averaging about 3.4 days per visit every month for the past six months.

So to have that short 3.4 days visit occur at the same time as the 6 day red menace visit during a 30 day months seems... improbable. To have that occur three times in a row...! Like I said, the heavens are conspiring against us.

I've been posting my journal entries when I got home from work. But on Tuesdays and Thursdays I get home a lot later that during the rest of the week. So I'm going to try and write an entry before I go to work on Tuesdays and Thursdays. We'll see how that goes.

And now I'm going to go yell at my body.

______ of the Day

Watching

In always watch Sesame Street before work. It puts me in the right frame of mind.